At 23 years old, it feels like an appropriate time to scrap the way I've done things in the past and start fresh, but my question is how do I find the new path? And is there actually anything wrong with my old one?
Since I began my search a few weeks ago all I have successfully found is a pulled groin muscle (courtesy of my new dedicated workout routine), some weird tan lines (also courtesy of exercise) and quite a lot of things in my life that I want to question.
That's precisely how I pulled my groin muscle. Overextension = Having a pimp walk. |
There is nothing wrong with questions, except when you're not sure of the answers.
Here are a few things I've been pondering on my journey:
- Everyone says I'm nice, but am I really?
- Am I passive-aggressive but don't realize it?
- Do I push myself to actually succeed or do I just choose things I know I can do?
- Do I ever really let people in my head or my heart?
- By being so adamant about my southern roots, am I limiting my future?
I've started to wonder how my southernness plays into all this.
After 5 years of having my southernness scrutinized by friends (or "friends") I might as well be a one woman PR firm with the south as my sole client, but what impact does that have on my life and relationships?
I should probably be a member. |
I love the south and I'm proud of my heritage, but occasionally a thought weighs in the back of my mind that maybe I only attribute credit for my good qualities to my southern roots because it's all I know to do.
Who am I if not a southern woman? At this point I almost can't define myself any other way.
Don't get me wrong. I love trailer parks, rednecks with jacked up trucks and mullets just as much as the next girl, but sometimes I want to know who I am outside of all that.
Bless my heart, I hope this personal journey doesn't involve any more pulled muscles - they hurt!
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